Do I Really Know What I’m Doing? | Lifestyle

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I’m 21 years old, living with my boyfriend in our own 3 bedroom semi detached house, with a full time job, a dog, a blog and youtube channel. Reading that makes it sound like I have my shit together and that I really know what I’m doing but in reality I don’t.

I’m on minimum wage, with a loan being paid off, never completed my A-levels, never went to uni, left home at 17 (well left wales and all my friends and family at 17), have a shopping problem and multiple health issues – physical and mentally.

I have so many things I want to do with my life and don’t get me wrong the life I have now is great, I just want to travel the world and work abroad for a while, find myself and my roots. Just try and discover who I really am because even though it might sound odd even now in this ‘Adult’ life I have no idea who I am or what I’m doing.

I’m going day by day just winging it and hoping everything turns out well, for instance I currently have a mixed wash on and I’m just praying that the colour catcher makes sure my colours don’t run, plus my bath is full of bleach to get rid of the bath bomb stains and I’m just hoping I don’t burn my skin trying to clean it. I hate cleaning the toilet, making sure my house looks nice, that there’s clean undies to wear, plates to eat off and that my blog photos are of good quality. Not only am I an adult I’m also a blogging/vlogging adult so all the blog photos, videos, editing, post writing and scheduling tweets and posts – it can be tiring but I love it.

I have no idea what this posts purpose is and I feel like I’m just babbling away because honestly I have no idea what I’m doing with anything, heck even blogging and makeup. Is this contour blended? Who knows! I’ve even gone to work with grey hair from dry shampoo once because I was like it’s better than washing my hair . . .

17 Comments

  1. September 27, 2016 / 1:15 pm

    If you feel like you really need to travel to get to know who you are, you could take some weekend breaks that are affordable and give you a chance to see new places? I’m on minimum wage too, and about to move in with my partner, and I really want to travel, so weekend breaks are something we’re definitely considering in the next year!

    Steph – http://www.nourishmeblog.co.uk

    • siobhan
      October 11, 2016 / 6:04 pm

      I sometimes work weekends so that’s never a option for me sadly, thanks for the advice! x

  2. September 27, 2016 / 7:45 pm

    I’m with you, I feel exactly the same. I only realised the other week, at the age of 28 – I have no goals. Nothing to work towards at all!
    I hope the colour catcher did end up doing it’s thing! xx

    • siobhan
      October 11, 2016 / 6:05 pm

      Thanks luckily for me it did! xx

  3. September 27, 2016 / 8:01 pm

    I can definitely relate! Being in your twenties is so daunting and the pressure to be successful can get a bit much. Trust me, you have plenty of time to do the things you want to do. I’m 24 (very nearly 25) still at home, only working part time so I can work on my blog and no partner. But I’m happy! I’ve gotten to travel and it’s really helped me grow. Just find a way and enjoy it! : )
    Steph x.
    marvelsteph.blogspot.co.nz

    • siobhan
      October 11, 2016 / 6:06 pm

      Thank you! 🙂 x

  4. September 28, 2016 / 2:26 pm

    I feel exactly the same, i’m 21 and definitely don’t feel like I have my life together, no idea what I want to do with my life at the moment!

    Tiffany x http://www.foodandotherloves.co.uk

    • siobhan
      October 11, 2016 / 6:07 pm

      It seems like everyones the same! x

  5. Siobhans DAD!!!
    September 30, 2016 / 12:32 am

    If all fails ( Which I doubt it will ) You always got ME, your DAD!!!
    But you will succeed!!!
    Love you xxx

    • siobhan
      October 11, 2016 / 6:09 pm

      Thanks, love you too!! xxx

  6. Siobhans DAD!!!
    September 30, 2016 / 12:33 am

    From ur dad

  7. Daddy
    September 30, 2016 / 12:34 am

    My daughter

  8. October 26, 2016 / 8:30 pm

    just because your not doing conventional things like going to uni or have a job that would be titled a career doesn’t mean you dont have your shit together everyone just takes their own paths

    • siobhan
      October 30, 2016 / 9:14 pm

      Thank you 🙂

  9. Chadras
    December 13, 2016 / 9:51 pm

    I absolutely love this post. There’s nothing like being open and honest. It’s so freeing.

    • siobhan
      December 15, 2016 / 7:36 pm

      Thank you 🙂

  10. February 27, 2017 / 9:15 am

    Peosemiantns de paz en tiempos de la postguerra. Ironia de la vida encontrar guerra en la paz, tanto desorden en el pais y tanta sangre derramada sin piedad, sin pensarlo dos veces, Y solo nos quedan las letras para disparar quejas, sordas talvez pero balas de paz;seguras. Saludos

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